Finding my passion and building it up, my experience

The passion

Simply put I found it as your loving loving heart over something else. Some say it is not found in that you don’t wake up one morning loving this instead of that, and it takes more than discovering it to have it as your passion. It more than a matter of emotions, that you have something in your mind running there irrationally and growing or changing radically into something rather different than when it first showed up in one. You heart on something is one thing, attending it so that you grow stronger in it is another.

Curiosity disease

It was in 2014 when I started to seriously want to know things that are beyond my stuff in such a way that if they were not given to me through the formal education I received, available to you from the school etc., I had to find means to have bits of them into your knowledge base at any cost. That curiosity was unstoppable, and it sort of rushed against what I was bound to be occupied with when it attacked. A good example is from the diary itself:

My first google search query happened when I was a high school student when our school had installed its WiFi system just for less that sixty computers donated in our library. I didn’t go on and read some Divinity notes and download works by T. Constable from the sites were were told do but I started dig deep into what was internet, and why it was what it was. A year later I was with all the knowledge about how payment are done online, and how each participant in the internet world from Wikipedia to Facebook and from a Game developer to a blogger earns and how some bad things happen there. Whilst computers sucked all of my input into having some knowledge inside me, my grades were falling down.

This wasn’t attention diverted, it was a passion breaking through its barriers including the need for good grades.

An answered call

There is a time when a passion is left alone to fight its barrier alone and there shall be a time when it will be defended.

When the call of the passion is answered, anyone who sort of goes against it and the path you are picking through it becomes wrong. Where there is a sense of danger you see hope. For defending what you love is one of the things you learn to do just as you get to love them. Hence, it is the extend of that defense that may explain the depth of the passion.

The unwelcoming start

When the starting line is miles away from us we reason that it is far away. Well, when a passion catches up with what we do, we don’t reason we work very hard to bring the starting line to just where we are. This stage of having a start where a start is difficulty happens with the few who keeps going, a few who now have an understanding that difficulty is not impossible.

This phase now is part of the buildup process. It is the start that happens against all all odds.

Read also: How to get started and moving

I dropped out of college and I never regretted it. It was only that I tried to conceal it by all means from early 2019 up to May 2021. I left the capital in January 2021 where I was be earning around USD300 a year in the past two only to get stuck in the countryside where nothing, as I was warned can come easy for lazy people. I had to build from zero facing a harsh deadline (May 2021. I had told them I would be graduating then.) for me to have created something by its arrival, something to use as a defence and say ‘I don’t have the degree but I have this and I can pay for my brother’s school fees’.

Building from zero, achieving to have this blog come to life, my first fish farming project and to farm okra that actually sold was a start that wasn’t unorthodoxy. It happened not through confidence. My passion killed the confidence and replaced it with patience. It was no longer about getting USD500 a few graduates I had known in the seminar room who were now employed were earning. It was about that growth factor this blog will discuss much about. It was about growing out of an income and grow that income instead of being established.

Others who earned USD500 were now established, isnt it? They were now sure that in any month they worked for their employers their salaries and hence their incomes were guaranteed to come. What was left was for them was to manage their room in which to dance to the tune of their income.

Growth doesn’t mind a zero. Because it doesn’t give me a room, it doesn’t give you a room. Every time I am with a zero in my hands I am negotiating to have it going up, that where a passion fits in. My love for something wants me first to have some freedom of loving something to give me that patience.

This is impact from SubjectMe

In the darkest moments of my life, I open up my diary which is greatly digital now, and read for solutions. My diary is quite a big one, and I had to find means to share its little scraps with you.

The Impact edition of Socien’s personal diary shorten things for anyone without the need to read the full version of the diary, SubjectMe. You are never alone in the extremes, and you, me, him, her, can find a way out.

Below is a timeline with selected Impact reads.

01 May, 2021

I was mistaken for an outcast

What they say you are sometimes is not, but it is their information concerning you. Sometimes they can go ahead and give you an advice when they are wrongly misinformed. In this Impact section you will learn from first hand experience.

Catching and not having it

I caught a fish. My personal record, the biggest of its type I have ever seen coming out of our river. Stating why I couldn’t quite end up with it I tried to do so from a motivational angle.

29 April, 2021